Randomness in the Life of a Fool

From the Kore: no. 27: Social Happiness
February 1, 2005

Sort of realized something. Well, more like something clicked in my mind and I was reminded of the things that I wrote about in high school. I’m in university now, which is a little different, since peer pressure isn’t shoved into my face and I have created a bubble for myself. But I was sitting in Literary Theory, and the lecture was about social realism and something clicked.
The point that culture drills definitions into people’s brains, and thus we get our definitions of beauty, justice, good and bad, was made in the lecture. (For my purposes, I’m currently including religion as a part of culture. Just so that you know.) This is fairly easy to see, but are we really aware of how much this affects us?
I’ve never really understood culture to begin with, so it’s easier (in my opinion) for me to step back and totally ignore popular culture. Actually, popular culture disgusts me. My roommate was telling me about a few popular TV shows, and I felt like I had to puke. That’s what is considered entertainment? No wonder people are messed up and so easy for popular culture to latch on!
When I want to escape reality (because that’s what entertainment is, escapism), I want to totally escape reality. Dreaming about things doesn’t make things happen, and I’m not sure that I’ll be happy with what people tell me that I should want to have, in order to be happy. Money doesn’t last forever.
But this makes me ask, who really profits from popular culture? Really, who? Mostly big companies who leech the money, just because they think ‘money is everything, money makes me happy’. Really, does it? If I had to be a part of the whole scheme, I’d rather just give them the money and save my brain from rotting.
The beauty of this is that I don’t have to. I’m free to make my own choices, think for myself and defining my own definitions.
Now I ask you, how much of what you do is because everyone else is doing it, or because that is what other people says is right? Are you other people?

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I'm pink.

really, I am. I dyed my hair, and got dye all over me, so I'm pink.

Sarah and I joke that either I have a rare skin disease or that I'm allergic to the sun.

I think I should have used gloves **grins** but this is so much FUN!!!

maybe I get pictures soon ^.^

since I'm great at procrastinating (packing for camp), I might as well put in my two cents about the tsunami (did I spell that right? meh...)


I sort of have to agree with some people on certain issues. As it stands, Humanity is a cancer to the Earth, and the Earth has every right to wipe us all out into oblivion. Now, listen to me and try to see where I'm coming from before tearing at me.
As a part of the Christian belief system, Humans are caretakers of the planet. If we look closely, you will agree that we've messed that up. I'm not naming whom, and I'm not naming how. That's not the point. We messed up. God (through Jesus) forgives our messing up and mistakes, but only spiritually. this allows us to become pure.
But it's different when you mess with nature. Mother Nature isn't so forgiving, because there's a delicate balance to be maintained. There are prices to be paid when things happen. I'm stealing the term equivilant trade, because it sums it up. Something of equal value must be given. [That was the idea of Jesus, after all, because we can not pay the price of our sins (stopping that thread there...)]

But in terms of nature, in a sense, Nature is a part of God/Ultimate Being as much as we are, and yet, apart like we are. So Nature is not God saying "You are bad people, DIE!" Nature is just reacting and taking what is needed to survive, which results, sadly, in this case, in the deaths of a lot of people. and so, a price is paid, whether or not it is the Earth reacting to something we have done. Some where it is, since we live on Earth, and therefore effect everything that happens, just like every thing that happens affects us. And so, people die.


All the hype disgusts me. It's like a drug, or the Stupid Gene or something, we as humans love suffering. And so, the plates shift, move so many feet/iches/whatever up under the ocean floor, resulting in earthquakes and a big tidal wave that takes out a nick in the human population. I'm not even bothering with the body count anymore, but it's only a major piece if it gets to the millions. I know it sounds cold, but I'm looking at this from an abstract manner. With the way that the media handles this, it makes me say "I don't care, they're dead!" Yes, it is really sad. I've known death, I've buried family before, so I know how it feels. But the media is handling this like a sports event, and that's disgusting me.

So maybe we're all in shock or something. Yeah, this is bigger than 9/11, but hell, there can't be a war coming out of this one, unless they start arguing about emergency response, which is pretty desperate, if you ask me. (Do we really want more wars? I don't) But a natural disaster! Ha!

Mother Nature kicks ass over Politics any day.

a general hello to everyone. Halloween was great fun, I collected cans for a food fund. and got CANDY!!!

last night I didn't sleep because I was trying to write a tonne. didn't work so well. I have most of the outline for Javaman, but it's not inspired to come out. **kicks muses**

So instead last night I downloaded a whole bunch of manga, including Death Note. MAN, it's good!!! I love it ^.^ battles of wits, shinigami's and all ^^ muwhahahahahaha!!!
CLAMP's xxxHOLiC also owns a part of my soul. pretty soon, I'm going to pick up the third volume. I have one and two already. I also have Saiyuki 1-3 ^.^ yum yum!!

Mai, my roomie, is now hooked onto anime. She read the first volume of Akira, and then read Neil Gaiman's The Dream Hunters. Between me and her boyfriend... heh heh

But between Bleach, xxxHOLiC, and Death Note, I have inspiration! to write!! but not Javaman... sorry hairy guy, Electric Ghost is finally getting it's act together!!! no clue as to how to write it, but ideas are forming!! FORM!! FORM!!!

heh, it's been a while, eh?

Cinnamon and I went to SKiFFY last night. I had fun, and I think she did too. But you know when you've seen The Princess Bride a little too many times when you can KNIT and quote along with the movie and other girls at the same time. ah, great fun though! and I got work done on my scarf!

Also, I was declared hyper loud fangirl, especially after I went down and bought some snacks and bounced around the store.

Today I slept in. Since I had gotten to bed at 3 am.

And the I had a headache, around the eyes. Other people were sleeping in and had headaches, but I think because of a different reason than me. Unless someone managed to spike my water bottle last night. which is unlikely, because SKiFFY prides itself for it's alcohol free activities.
I'm sticking to my reason, that I slept in too late to take my allgra, and my body wasn't too happy at me for staying up so late.

I updated my firefox. it's niiiiiiiiiiiiiice!!
need to finish Naruto manga downloads. meh, tired.

Basically, the only productive things I've done all day was knit, finish a bead braclet on my loom, and start on my art homework, a self portrait in charcoal. Oh yes, and I've been doing some prepping for the next chapter of Amhelaki. I'm doing a better job of shadowing. And yes, I'm inking it by hand with whiteboard markers, fineliners and sharpies, because to do it on the computer would hurt my eyes.

I just finished volume four of RahXephon. I was going to watch the fourth of King of Bandits Jing, but the guy at GJ must have mixed up, and put the DVD for the first volume in the case. Maybe I can get a free rental or something.

bed now, g'night!